We decided not to go to Germany. The reward for the risk was not clear enough for us.
We have this saying in our family, “We just need to get to….” It tends to show up when someone, usually Kieran and sometimes me, is overly excited or nervous…
This was not the future we envisioned or dreamed of for our child. What we had taken for granted was no longer certain. In fact, we were being told by the experts that it was not possible. People where telling us to give up, to let go.
The diagnosis of our unborn baby was a tornado that came out of nowhere and changed that. We had no warning, no preparation, and no knowledge of what that tornado was. It felt like a freight train coming right at us so loud I could not hear any other noise. The tornado made a direct hit. Everything was wiped away except for the two of us standing looking around asking ourselves, “What do we do now?”